Beau is going to be a BIG BROTHER!!!

Yay!!!! I am 16 weeks pregnant and we are so thrilled! We found out at the beginning of May that we were going to be parents again and we were so thankful. I am due January 6th. Most of you know that we have been dealing with fertility issues for almost 2 years. We went to a specialist in January and found out I had a small issue that could be corrected surgically. We were told to try for 3 months before coming back in to pursue the next step...treatments, medicines, etc. On the 3rd month, we became pregnant. Words will never be able to accurately express how thankful and overwhelmed we were by the the blessing of getting pregnant "naturally" and not having to go down the fertility treatment path. (I do not think there is anything wrong with treatments, medicines, interventions, etc....I am just so thankful the Lord blessed us with a child before we had to take that step).

These past 23 months that we were trying to get pregnant were the worst months that we have ever had to deal with in our married life. Almost every one I knew was pregnant or just had a baby. I kept thinking it would be us next, but the months kept on ticking away. It was so hard to go to play groups, see friends, or read people's blogs and facebook because everyone was sharing their great news of new additions and I was just longing for a new addition to our family. Our friends and family were so great throughout the process, even on my worst days. We became so thankful for each other and for our son, Beau. We came to the point where we were still praying and believing for more children, but were content with Beau. I would just stare at him sometimes and tear up because I was thankful that the Lord chose me to be his Mom.

Rodney and I dug into the Word like never before because we were desperate for hope and wisdom for our situation. Rodney handled things much better than I did, and I had many more moments of hopelesness and fear than he did. But, we read Isaid 49:23 daily "Those who hope in the Lord WIll NOT be disappointed." We also prayed and believed Psalm 113:9 daily "He settles the barren woman in her home as the happy mother of children."

One of our pastors said that when it is raining in your life (storms, hardships, troubles, etc.), to Worship. That simply Worshipping during those times changes everything. I believe it does too. This was a song that was listened to constantly on my itunes to help me on the roughest days...God is so good and faithful to pick us up during our toughest times and carry us through them.

"Desert Song" by Hillsong
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

I will bring praise, I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain
I will rejoice, I will declare, God is my Victory and He is there

And this is my prayer in the battle, and triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm in His promise I'll stand

All of my life, in every season, You are still God
and I have a reason to sing, I have a reason to Worship
This is my prayer in the Harvest, when favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow.